I just had one of those days where I was not exactly productive and I know why.

I decided that I needed to write a letter to ABBAH (I keep a journal of my letters to my Father, I have found this to be the best was to unburden my heart). So I just got home about 10minutes ago, finally settled in and picked up my letter journal. I realised that the last time I had written to ABBAH was in February 2021, we have been having orally conversations since then.

The first line of my last letter caught my eyes – “Dear Daddy, I Think I Have Found Love”.

I am tempted to quote the entire paragraph because I can feel the energy and excitement felt when I wrote that letter. This was happening at a time when I had decided to be deliberate about finding a work-life balance and creating more time for other activities and relationship. It’s been seven years and I felt I was ready to get back out there so when this happened, I could have sworn that this was IT.

Ok, so here’s a summary.

A darling friend decided to hook me up with this person whom she felt would make a perfect match for me. She wasn’t the first and definitely would not be the last person close to me who have tried to hook me up. So when she sort my permission to make the move on my behalf, I didn’t object (frankly, I was beginning to enjoy just getting to meet new people without the hassle of going out and starting the conversation). Permission granted, the shot was SHOT.

I took my time to go through his IG page which was somewhat impressive and the captions were well put together, but its social media so i no dey too reason wetin people dey write on top their caption until i know the pesin wella. I got to know him and let’s say he is what he portrays… No buts – yet.

Oh I remember! The excitement I felt every time we spoke over the phone, the several video calls – I felt like a teenager who just had her first crush. Every time I had to remind myself that I am a grownup and grownup do relationship different. Who was I kidding! LOL! Its been so long that even as I write this, I frankly do not know how to behave in a relationship. Victor felt I was finally off his hands and had started preparing his wedding list because he had never seen me not in control of my emotions and excited about a guy… A GUY (Victor is my adopted elder brother).

Why did it not work out? Well, for a number of reasons. See I tried, I really did and i’m saying this with my full chest because my village people always feel like I’m the one who is such a workaholic. So if you still doubt me, ask Victor, he saw present through it all.

There is no moral to this post, I just felt like sharing because the memory makes me happy. I enjoyed the emotions and attention while it lasted and I don’t regret my actions. I’m a hopeless romantic so there is no doubt that love will find me soon. Till then, I’ll keep trying not to be so much of a “Couch Potato” or “Home Bug” as I was described by the Hooker.

Now let me get back to my journal. I have so much to say to ABBAH.

Love

Ritzy